and I don't think it's coming back....
When Hyperborean Wanderer and I were newlyweds, one of the things that drove him nuts, was my absentmindedness. I frequently locked myself out of the house and out of my car. I would forget what I was doing and what I was supposed to do. (Although I was plauged by the sense that I had forgotten something important) I was always running back into the house for my purse or a paper that I forgot.
With time and patience, he taught me to do a pat down before I left the house....keys, check. purse, check. etc etc. This was handy in Bosnia because then I did the M-16, check. radio, check. SFOR badge, check. I rarely forgot to bring the main items with me, although I still occasionally lost some of the less frequently needed items.
Well, I have struggled with my memory for years. I even went as far as going through a battery of tests. Turns out that while my IQ is higher than I would have expected, my memory recall is pretty bad. I told my friend (a therapist who administers these tests frequently) what my scores were...she said, "Oh a 53? You couldn't have had a 53...you'd have to be a moron to get a 53....". Assuming I had just forgotten the score, I went back and checked the verbal rentention score....It was a 53.
I told you all that so I could tell you this. I think I am losing my mind. I frequently lose things....important things like children, tax returns and small things like, my dinner. I think I remember seeing something in a certain place, but then when I go back....it's no longer there. I think I remember bringing an item (say my tax returns) in from the car. But then I don't know if I thought I should bring them inside or if I ACTUALLY brought them inside. I look for my bellydancing skirt. I remember it was in a white plastic bag with some other clothes next to the shelves of canned food in the garage. I saw it just a week or two ago. It's clear as a bell, but when I go to get it......it's not there. I go shopping and forget to pick my son up from daycare....I end up being an HOUR late.
I really think I am losing my mind. I write everything down or I don't stand a chance of getting it done. I have to have a grocery list if I need more than 2 items. I have to ask my friends to remind me of things. I lose almost everything. It takes me 4 trys to get my son's name right! I have to look on the weather channel to see what day it is. I start the day by looking at my list so I know if I have anything to do....and recheck it 10 or 12 times by noon. I can forget to go to the store....on my way there....and end up coming home without doing my grocery shopping. I really think I'm losing my mind.
But I always know where my keys are.