actually, I'll sell them back
WOOO HOOOO! I am finally done with this semester! Finally, the nightmare is over. Actually, it wasn't that bad, but my fluff class was hard and the other was a lot of essay work and HORRIBLE exams. I can't express the level of irritation I felt with my Philosophy instructor. I think he made his exams impossible just to see if anyone would quit. You were timed and had one question pop up on a screen. Once you answered, you could not go back. Oh, and he never posted how many questions there were! Stress!
Even though I bombed the midterm and barely passed the final....I am walking out with a decent 86% (I'm guessing because the last 2 essays are not graded yet, but that's the worst likely case based on previous grades) I suppose the massive quantity of time I put into the 16 freaking essays in 8 weeks paid off. But my stress level is much lower now that I am done.
Actually I do want to brag....even though I had a 53.6 % on my midterm and a 64.32% on my final, I still beat the class averages.. 49.3% and 42.3% respectively.
In high school, I would have been stressed out because I "only" got a B in the class. Even a few years ago, I would have really made myself sick with worry and frustration. Maybe it's the fact that I nearly have 3 decades under my belt or that motherhood has mellowed my perfectionism, but I found myself surprised at the level of calm I felt in the face of failure.
Go figure. I guess that it is harder to admit our weaknesses than it is to "fake" perfection. It takes a lot more effort to pull off the perfect standards but it's much harder to let it go. Yet, after you let go of perfectionism, life gets a lot less easier. I'm not so picky about my lawn being perfectly mowed or my kids being immaculate. I'm getting better at forgiving myself for being a slob occasionally.
So what stresses you out? Have you been able to let go of stress in your life? What was it and what made it so hard to give up?