Wednesday afternoon I found out that a girl I work with had just been notified that her husband was killed in Iraq. This is one of the sweetest, nicest people that you have ever met. She gave birth to thier son right befor her husband deployed.
And now he's gone.
This is actually the first time someone I know well has lost a husband. I've attended too many memorials, but they have been memebers of the unit that I didn't know. And I don't know what to say. I called and spoke to Tracy (the FRG leader who is screening her calls) and expressed my sympathy. I offered to help in any way I can, but they have not accepted an offer as of yet. Maybe I'll just bring some food by, but that seems a bit trite and more than just a bit sterotypical. And I dont' know what to bring.
I just found out that my boss has placed two journals out, one for employees and one for the memebers of her class. She is going to have us write something instead of trying to cram a million little names on a card. I had planned on sending a card on my own, but I've stalled for the same reason that I haven't stopped by work to sign the book.
I don't know what to say.
I'd rathar not make some trite remark about "I'm so sorry for your loss" "You are in my thoughts and prayers" While true, everyone says that and it makes the words sound meaningless.
I dont' want to say " I am so sorry. I don't know what to say. I can't imagine how you feel." BTW, that was my first thought, to be honest. But honestly, she doesn't care how I feel.....she is the one in pain.
I can't imagine what would bring me comfort if my husband should die. I dont' think anything could pull me back from the edge of dispair. Yeah, I know faith in God and all that. But if I think about her too much, my heart breaks. I cna't imagine how she must feel.
She has already had some people make VERY uncouth, EXTREMELY insensitive remarks. I'd be a bit on edge if I was her and possibly more aware of faux pax made by those around me. I am guilty of putting my foot in my mouth sometimes, so I want to be prepared when I see her at the memorial on Sunday. I don't want to stutter and stammer and possibly say something that could hurt her.
I thought about giving her a small gift. A semi-finished scrapbook. Pages are done and all she needs is to add some photos. I put words like "family" "love" "us together" etc on pages throughout the book. I wonder though if it will come across wrong. I would probably want to look at pictures of my husband.....but she may not be ready for something like that yet. I dont' know.
I guess what I'm asking for is advice. What do I say?